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[Sep. 24th, 2007|07:49 am] |
last night, i dreamed that i somehow scraped all the skin off the top of my right middle finger. it must have happened while i was talking to that band from san francisco on the way to owen's house. or while i was trying to figure out whether i should stay in my current apartment or move back to the previous one.
anyway, i freaked out when the tip of my finger started to go tingly and numb. i went to the emergency room, and after the basic go-over with a nurse, she said it would be a twelve hour wait. i was horrified - i thought i was going to lose my finger. when i told them i had no coverage and would be paying cash, however, the wait dropped to thirty five minutes. in the end, the whole experience just left me glad i had an excuse not to go to work.
i still have the skin on my finger, and it's off to work!
happy birthday to me! |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2007|10:51 pm] |
soon soon soon.
life is good! i have things going on. i'm getting things done.
thank you everyone! |
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[Jun. 8th, 2007|01:07 am] |
randomly surfing wikipedia.
polonium:
"A few curies of 210Po emit a blue glow which is caused by excitation of surrounding air. A single gram of 210Po generates 140 watts of power."
holy shit! |
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[Apr. 11th, 2007|11:40 pm] |
 | You scored as The Vine. In Celtic astrology, you're a Vine (not everything on the zodiac is a tree). The animal symbol that accompanies this plant is the swan. The ancient Druids say Vine people are graceful, discriminating, perceptive, romantic and have good aesthetics. However, Vines may be prone to procrastination and anxiety. They may also appear emotionally detached or even stuck-up.
The Vine | | 80% | The Hawthorn | | 55% | The Rowan | | 50% | The Ash | | 50% | The Elder | | 50% | The Hazel | | 45% | The Alder | | 45% | The Holly | | 45% | The Oak | | 40% | The Birch | | 35% | The Reed | | 35% | The Ivy | | 35% | The Willow | | 35% | </td>
What Tree Are You? (Celtic astrology)
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[Apr. 6th, 2007|12:08 am] |
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there were lots of islands. in one particular area of the water there were lots of little green organisms. if you went near them, they would get happy and excited and lift you up above the water in a column made of millions of the things. then they would drop you off on a certain island. i did it a few times, it was so fun. |
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| i'm alive |
[Mar. 9th, 2007|08:19 pm] |
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got my computer back finally. despite annoyances in life (mostly arising from jobs, money, and related things) i am incredibly happy these days.
( had to do a survey ) |
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[Dec. 12th, 2006|12:49 pm] |
this is my last official day at school, and since the only computers i have right now are at school, i figure i'll update. yeah, my lappy's still broken. real broken. the move went well. end of term went.. ok. a few hours to go. i'll be coming home to victoria soon, sometime next week, probably around the 20th. and i'll stay until after new years. nathan's coming to the island for new years too... 90% positive.
right i guess that's it. don't have anything very interesting to say. business as usual. |
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| yay whining! |
[Dec. 4th, 2006|04:11 pm] |
school is so close to being over. but man.. right now it's really not over. i have 1000 words to write in 3 hours and have had a headache for three days. at the moment i'd rather kill someone than finish this essay.
talk to me again in 3 days. |
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| halloween was cool |
[Nov. 1st, 2006|11:39 am] |
yes i'm still alive.
halloween went well despite my late start. i headed out to get my costume at 5.30 last night, and by 9 i was at the party. i was margot from the royal tenenbaums. here's an actual picture of me in costume:
so i think it went pretty well :D haha no i had a fur coat and a blonde "supermodel" wig that doesn't look anything like her hair. oh and dark eye makeup. i did get compliments though! rock on. owen really does it up for halloween every year, or so i'm told, this is the first one i've been to. it was like christmas-level of decoration for most people and everyone was dressed up. even though savage's costume was the word "idaho" in 72-point font taped onto his chest. it was a good time.
so tell me about your halloween night/parties! i'm curious. |
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| sentences about my life at the moment |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|12:14 am] |
my living room is full of raucous indians.
it's getting cold and crisp outside. been thinking about plant capillaries freezing overnight. heart-shaped fallen leaves are cute and sad. my GOD i did not mean that to be emo. it's weird to remember what i was up to when those leaves first grew. it's kind of sad to know that i probably won't spend another summer living here and that those night-time walks i so enjoyed are pretty firmly over. but think of the new, exciting night-time walks to come!
i don't know what it is about school that drains me so much. could be just the getting up at 7.30 am, since i consider any hour before 10 to be ungodly. i could hardly meet commuters' eyes on the way to school in the morning! all you people with your jobs and lives and corporate coffees! if only i had your size of wages. it could be the crappy atmosphere of the madt department - the complete lack of windows and ubiquitous fan noise could drive anyone crazy. it could be that i'm just stressed about getting my tuition paid and once that happens it will all be smooth sailing straight to christmas.
i am looking forward to christmas. trip to the coast, even potentially road-tripping... we'll see how the next months go. i have many fears, founded and not. i'm really trying to not have baggage! but i also have to be honest. i'm behind myself and slightly to the left, laughing, while i fret.
i'm realizing more and more how self-editing i am and how much that sucks. what am i so afraid of, anyway?
i saw my t minus twenty years doppelganger today. little blond kid with thick glasses, saying hi to everyone in the rogers.
i pretty much just got home and i work again in less than ten hours! boo!
it's my birthday next week. |
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| zomg drawing |
[Aug. 24th, 2006|01:44 am] |
( whoa i did a selfportrait! )
i've been watching a lot of music videos on youtube. bjork definitely has the most consistently cool videos. but the best by far was the one for frontier psychiatry by the avalanche. brilliant!
while i was watching the paranoid android video i guess i had some sort of high school depression flashback, because while he's hanging out with the angel, i burst the fuck into tears. they're playing ping pong, and then she's holding him and they're watching the paddles moving by themselves, and for some reason it just set me off. still don't know what it was. guess i'm a psycho like that sometimes.
i have lightened up since high school, really! |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2006|01:49 pm] |
i got to see sarah yesterday! she had a stopover here so we hung out for a few hours at the airport. my manager at work forgot i booked the day off and scheduled me, so everyone hates me now for not going in, but it was totally worth it. hopefully we can do the same thing on her way back. darlana, i'm sorry i won't be able to see you before you go.
i can just feel myself getting depressed the last couple of days. at least i see it coming now! i know what's causing it, too. here's the things i need to do to stop it:
- just go out and apply for jobs. it's not hard, everyone in the damn city is looking.
- budget and start saving. you've got the money coming in, now just use it responsibly.
- stop beating myself up. i made myself cry today! i bullied myself into it. that's fucked up.
- once budgeting is done, have FUN looking for a new place.
- get help from others to keep on track.
- don't worry so much about what other people think. |
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| summer's ending... dammit |
[Aug. 16th, 2006|01:21 pm] |
the summer has been good. i feel like i have my personality back. i feel like i have easy freedom in social situations (usually). but school... yeah, school still freaks me out.
i still have a deficit of confidence. for example, when i imagine myself in an office job, being organized and presenting at meetings, it freaks the fuck out of me. i know it wouldn't be that hard but i feel like i could never, ever do it. that, combined with the lingering guilt of all the shit that happened in the acad building last year (all that lost work... it makes me sick) makes me, shall we say, a little averse to going there.
but 2 classes. i can totally do that. and then i'll be in motion, moving to a new place, getting a new job, rolling rolling.
and i do feel a boost from that special someone. i can't even believe they'd look twice at me, but here we are. i guess it's not too good to be true and i'm just giving myself too little credit. |
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| $200 later! |
[Aug. 2nd, 2006|10:00 am] |
i'm back. it's been long enough that the interfaces seem mildly strange to me. that's a good feeling, actually.
what did i do without a computer? read heart of darkness (i read it every summer), went for walks, made NO progress on not smoking cigarettes, hung out a lot, spent too much money, spooned, played d+d for the first time, fired off bottle rockets, and worked a lot.
now, you tell me. what did i miss? |
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[Jul. 22nd, 2006|12:00 pm] |
my computer's in the shop and i'll know in about 3 days whether they could fix it or not. i might have to replace the whole motherboard. it was pretty intimidating when i brought it in, because their price sheet said $110/hour service charge! holy poop.
i've been hanging around a lot with nathan, a guy i used to work with back when i started at my current job. he's an undercover geek like me so we have a lot in common. the semi-problem is, we tend to hang out 11pm-4am. i'm sure my room mates hate him! it's awesome for the summer, though, because during the day it's so bloody hot i don't want to do anything anyway. but at night it's t-shirt-maybe-a-light-sweater weather and we go out for epic walks together.
speaking of geekery... you guys know i play world of warcraft, probably. by the time you level up your character, all that's left is areas that you need big 20-man or 40-man groups to progress in. so the guild i've been raiding with has been working on the end boss of molten core for a while, and we finally got him down a couple weeks ago. we also beat the end boss of another area, zul'gurub, the same week. it's great, because we'd been working on it for months! it's a very small thing to be proud of, in the scheme of things, but it's exciting nonetheless.
off to work! |
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| my computer |
[Jul. 17th, 2006|12:44 am] |
so you won't see much of me for the next while, probably - i'm having computer problems.
i have the notoriously poorly-engineered toshiba satellite a70 laptop. dammit. it overheats chronically, which was annoying, but bearable. apparently, the heat sink was poorly designed, and gets clogged up really easily, so it can't cool itself off properly. i started to have another problem recently, that the power cord was really fiddly. it will now not connect at all 95% of the time. i'm basically forced to take it in, and the guy on the phone at futureshop said it was probably a situation where they'd need to replace the motherboard. after doing a bit of research, i found this site which details the problem. apparently, because of the overheating, the solder holding the power jack onto the motherboard actually melts! bastards. i hope i can get them to just solder that part back on and clean the thing, rather than replace the entire motherboard. i guess i could find out about extra heat sinks and ram as well while i'm there. i'm not made of money, though...
bastards. |
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| toby |
[Jul. 8th, 2006|12:47 pm] |
my cat, toby, died on wednesday. i got her for my birthday in grade three, and it was the best gift of my life. she loved us all and we loved her so much. i'm glad that she spent her little life with us, and when i think of her life as a whole like that, it makes me happy. it still hurts a lot that she's gone. she slept with me in my bed every night for years. i guess some part of me knew she was gone on wednesday night, even though she lives over with my parents. i couldn't sleep at all, and kept thinking about her. i guess if there's any sort of psychic connection in the world, there would be one between me and her. i dreamed about her last night. i hadn't really cried about her death until this morning.
she was so wonderful. rest in peace, toby. |
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| lonely |
[Jul. 8th, 2006|04:54 am] |
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if i could have someone with me 24 hours a day, i would. i've kind of always been like that. when i was little, i'd have tantrums when it was time to go home. lately i've fought off tiredness to hang out with people just that much longer. if i could share my bed with my friends, i would. it seems like such a waste to be alone. |
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